5 Reasons Why Asking For Help Sucks

postpartum depression supportToday I had to ask for help.

I HATE asking for help.  

I get uncomfortable. I start to sweat. I do everything I can to avoid it. I make excuses. I am overcome with fear. Sometimes I even cry about it. Seriously. I cry like a sobbing, red-faced, squealing baby.

I went for a walk today because I was so damn stressed out about having to ask for help, and as I walked I thought to myself, “You need to write about this, Katherine. Every day you tell your readers to ask for help, and you are practically incapable of doing it yourself.”

Somewhere along the line I convinced myself that asking for help is a bad thing. It doesn’t matter whether it’s with my nonprofit, or for postpartum depression, or mothering, or anything else … it scares me to death. What the hell is that about?!

I mentioned this on Twitter and was very grateful to hear from other women who feel the same way.  I’m not the only one with this social phobia.   [Read more...]

How Does A PPD Survivor Forgive An Unsupportive Spouse?

I received this email from a Postpartum Progress reader yesterday, and she agreed to allow me to share it with you:

I am a PPD survivor who is over a year into recovery. My spouse wasn't very supportive or understanding while I was sick and thought that I should just snap out of it. Anyway, fortunately I got through it and I am thankful every day that I can enjoy my children again but I continue to resent my husband even though he has apologized for being a jerk. I would like to know if there are other PPD survivors who experienced an unsupportive spouse/partner and how many of these survivors were able to forgive and forget.

GREAT question.Some women who go through a perinatal mood or anxiety disorder have spouses who were unsupportive …either mildly or altogether horribly unsupportive. For many new fathers, their expectations of what life will be like with a newborn and how their wives or partners will behave or take to motherhood are not met. They may react with disappointment, or with anger, or by withdrawing. Some expect the mother to pull herself up by her bootstraps and tough it out. Some aren't willing to pitch in to help. Some don't believe in the types of treatment offered and demand the mother get overPPD all on her own. Often this is because they just don't understand these illnesses and their consequences.

And then, of course, some people are just jerks.

While my husband was great with helping to care for our infant son, I will say he did have a hard time at the beginning understanding what was going on with me. He'd say "Other new dads I know don't have to do all the stuff I'm doing. Why?" I imagine he resented how hard he had to work to take care of me and my son while at the same time holding down a full-time job. In the end, though, we both learned a lot about what was happening with me and he supported my treatment and encouraged my recovery. I believe his initial confusion and frustration came out of a complete lack of knowledge about what was happening.

So, how did it go with your husband or partner? And, if things didn't go so well, how did you reconcile that? How have you moved past it or forgiven him? Please share your thoughts and ideas.

What Do You Want To Know About Postpartum Depression?

Several weeks ago, when we had Delurker Day here at Postpartum Progress, y'all were commenting away. Now … not so much. So, I thought I'd ask: What types of stories do you want to see here on PP? What are you interested in? What do you want to see more (or less) of? Do you have any questions that you'd like answered? Let me know and I'll tackle them head on!! I want to make sure I keep things informative and lively here. Please give me your input!

"Mom Prom" in Seattle to Benefit Postpartum Support International of Washington

The first annual Seattle Mom Prom, a fundraiser for postpartum support for women, will be held in Seattle at the Naval Reserve Building in South Lake Union on April 10th from 8pm to midnight. They invite women of all ages to "take a step back in time, trade in their mom jeans for sequins and live up the glory and glamour of their first prom". Attendees will enjoy an evening of dancing, drinks, dessert and the opportunity to win prizes from local companies.

All proceeds from the Seattle Mom Prom will directly benefit Postpartum Support International of Washington, a non-profit organization that supports and educates women, families and professionals about postpartum mood and anxiety disorders.

Tickets are available here for $35 each.

Postpartum PTSD Sometimes Mistaken as Postpartum Depression

The website The Survivors Club offers a story on postpartum post-traumatic stress disorder, which we rarely see covered, so this is nice.Check it out!

Here's the full story on postpartum PTSD from Taffy Brodesser-Akneron Salon.com.

Also, click here if you'd like to read more stories on postpartum PTSD.

Postpartum Psychosis & The Lack of Insight

I wanted to share this interesting exchange that occurred in the Comments section when I wrote this week about two recent, tragic instances of mothers killing their young children and the assumptions people make that every time a mother kills her child the act was related to postpartum psychosis or postpartum depression.

The first comment came from someone calling themselves GuideMD:

[according to a local article, the mother in Edmonton] "had shown signs of depression, but refused to get help" – not necessarily postpartum psychosis, but tragic when people don't want to get help for depression (for whatever reason).

Then, a response from Jeremy Condon, whose wife killed herself due to postpartum psychosis:

"Refused to get help" could be out of context and very misleading. My wife suffered from postpartum depression with postpartum psychosis and thought she was absolutely fine, even though she had a very strong family/friends support network with appropriate guidance. In fact, during a sort of manic phase of her illness, she had never felt better in her entire life. No person on earth would seek "treatment" when everything seems fine, much less when everything feels better than ever. You cannot blame the victim and assert that they take responsibility for their illnesses and just accept help/get over it/let someone fix them. Nobody wants to suffer. All human beings strive to move away from pain, no matter what. Treating these types of postpartum complications can be very, very complicated.

Firstly, women with postpartum depression don't kill their children. (Although, if they havepostpartum depression with psychotic features, as pointed out by the commenter "interested" below, they do have that potential.)

Secondly, women with postpartum psychosis very rarely cause harm to themselves or others. Enough of them do, though,that we must consider all women with postpartum psychosis of beingin danger if not receiving effective treatment (and sometimes even when they are receiving treatment, sadly, because the illness is just so pervasive), which is why we have to watch out for ALL of them so carefully.

Thirdly, if they do harm their children it's because they're SEVERELY ill and not in control of their actions and because those around them don't recognize they're in a dangerous situation. Or because everyone does recognize it and is trying to care for her but the woman believes she must take action in some way for some reason and finds a way to do so.

Fourthly (is there a fourthly?), there are women who kill their children who do not have any type of perinatal mood or anxiety disorder and never have.

Oneissue with postpartum psychosis is thatsome of thepeople who have it suffer from a lack of insight.Per Wikipedia on psychosis and insight:

The three kinds of insight that are most vulnerable to severe mental illnesses [they're referring in this instance to psychosis and schizophrenia] are the awareness:

  • that a person is suffering from a mental disorder
  • of the effects of medication; and
  • of the social consequences of having a mental disorder.

If the mother in Edmonton had postpartum psychosis (and we have NO idea if that's the case), she may not have recognized she needed any help. And if she was suffering from paranoia, which can be a symptom of psychosis, the very fact that someone would have suggested she needed help could have led her to believe that people were simply out to get her or harm her. She would have run as fast as possible away from help. And, as Jeremy mentioned, the mania that some women with postpartum psychosis can experience makesthem feel as if they could conquer the world. Who wants to make that go away?

As Jeremy explains in his comment below, there are other women who know something is wrong. Some of them feel the only way aroundtheir illnessis to commmit suicide because it's so severe they want to protect everyone else, regardless of whether they are being treated or not.

I'm beginning to understand more and more how complex postpartum psychosis is. That's why it's so pernicious.

MDs/PhDs/MSWs etc. in the house — help us out here and add to this discussion …

P.S. Here's an interestinglittle articleon the complexities ofinsight.

P.P.S. Be sure to read the comments below because they are very insightful (no pun intended) from people who've been there and know what they're talking about.

Note: If you'd like to learn more about the symptoms of postpartum psychosis and postpartum depression with psychotic features, click here.

Share Your Story & Win a Postpartum Progress Coffee Mug

Last week I asked you to tell us what finally brought those of you who have recovered, or are in the process of doing so, to reach out for professional help.

There were some really great responses in the comments section, but I heard from a healthcare professional who was disappointed that there weren't even more. She is really interested in hearing from moms what the tipping point was, what made them call a doctor or other provider.

So in the interest of getting more responses, I'm offering a little prize: a Postpartum Progress coffee mug.

Postpartum Progress Mug

Ooooooooooh. Aaaaaaaah.

Comment below (click the word "comment" at the bottom of this post) and let us know what made you seek treatment, and I will enter you into a drawing for the mug. What changed your mind if you were avoiding asking for help? What or who convinced you that you needed help and made you feel it was ok to call a doctor? Or made you call a doctor even if you felt it wasn't ok? Whatever it was, dramatic or mundane, we want to hear it.

There will be one lucky winner! (Oh, and don't worry, those of you who commented last week are automatically entered into the drawing.)

Don't Ignore Your Postpartum Depression

Don't forget to tune in tonight for the launch of PBS' 3-part series "This Emotional Life". I'll be watching.

And pleasecheck out my latest post on the PBS website:"Don't Ignore Your Postpartum Depression".

It's all about the consequences you suffer by hopingpostpartum depressionwill go away all on its own. Not a good idea.

Dan Scott Talks About Dads, Parenting and Postpartum Depression

Speaking of fathers and postpartum depression, I thought you might want to see this post by Dan Scott from the Life As Best I Remember It blog. He shares his experience with his wife when she had PPD.

If you didn't see it last week, here are five things new fatherscan do to help their wives or partners through postpartum depression and anxiety.[corrected link]

How to Get Help If You Have Postpartum Depression & No Insurance

A few weeks ago I shared with you a story by Lesley Alderman at the New York Times on making the most of your mental health insurance benefits. But what about those of you who have postpartum depression or a related illness and who don't have insurance?What if you have very limited mental health benefits? Alderman has written a follow-up columnen titled "How to Find Mental Health Care When Money Is Tight". She writes:

"According to a recent survey by the federal Substance Abuse and Mental Health Services Administration (Samhsa, pronounced SAM-suh), the leading reason that people with mental health issues don’t seek treatment is cost. They fear the fees."

If you've been reading Postpartum Progress for any length of time, you know that avoiding getting help is not an option when it comes to perinatal mood and anxiety disorders like PPD. Thankfully there are things that you can do that are low-cost or even no-cost.

One of Alderman's suggestions is to join a support group. These are most often free, andpeer supporthas been shown to lessen the symptoms of postpartum depression. You can click here for Postpartum Progress' list of postpartum depression support groups, and here for the list compiled by Postpartum Support International.

Aldermanalso lists free crisis lines like 1-800-273-TALK. Some states offer crisis hotlines specific to postpartum depression. In Illinois, the Jennifer Mudd Houghtaling Foundation has a crisis hotline for people in certain area codes (312, 773, 847, 708, 630, 815) at 1-866-364-MOMS. New Jersey also has a Postpartum Depression Family Healthline at 1-800-328-3838. And Postpartum Support International has a warm-line at 1-800-944-4PPD where you can ask questions during business hours.

I'd like to add a couple of things to Alderman's suggestions. One is to check into clinical trials on PPD. If there is one in your area and you are willing to participate, your care is often free during the period of the trial. You can search for clinical trials on perinatal mood and anxiety disorders here.

Additionally, there arebooks that you may find helpful. One, called the "Pregnancy & Postpartum Anxiety Workbook" by Pamela Weigartz helps you work through feelings of anxiety with the help of easy exercises and worksheets. The book "This Isn't What I Expected: Overcoming Postpartum Depression" by Karen Kleiman also offer sbrief self-help worksheets and exercises.

To read Alderman's entire column and see more of her suggestions, click here.

Also, you can click the link for more stories on PPD and health insurance.

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