This time of year makes me think of when I had postpartum OCD and was afraid to be alone with my baby. I still get that same twinge when summer comes and I worry about how to keep my two kids entertained all day long. Whether I have what it takes to get through two-and-a-half months of stay-at-home momdom. I wrote about it in my ParentDish column: Why Summer Break Scares Me
Wondered whether any of you who have survived a perinatal mood or anxiety disorder get that same feeling when summer break arrives. Is it just me? I mean, I know I'll be fine and we'll have fun, but I always have this temporary feeling that I'll be overwhelmed. I hate that feeling. A lot.
Having my 2nd baby the week before my son's school ended for Summer definitely caused me lots of anxiety during pregnancy and continues to postpartum, even though I have a lot of support in the form of playdates with friend's kids and even a PT babysitter just for L1 this summer. Tomorrow will be my first day home alone ALL DAY with two kids ever. I am already feeling anxious about it, but even if it takes allowing more "screen-time" than I'd like, I realize it won't kill him and we'll all survive it…it's just one day.
Thanks for pointing out that feeling nervous about unscheduled time outside of one's usual routine doesn't mean you are crazy or a bad mom.
My fiance gets the same as you, hope there is a fix.