postpartum depression, mental healthDear New Momma,

Wow. Are you tired, or what?

This mom thing, it is not for the weak… or those who can’t stomach coffee. I mean, I think eventually we all end up chugging a pot at some point, even if we hate the stuff.

If you’re feeling exhausted, fuzzy, sore, and, generally, like a truck hit you, please know that’s pretty normal when it comes to life with a new baby. Unfortunately.

What I want to tell you, though, is there are some things you may be feeling, hearing or seeing that are not so “normal.” I say this because it’s SO hard to decipher between what is and isn’t just a typical response to the 180 shift of your life once you become a mom when you are in the trenches.

See, I went for a really long time thinking what I was experiencing was just me being a mom… and really sucking at it. I thought what I was going through was a result of my inability to adapt. Instead, what I was experiencing was postpartum anxiety.

What that looked like for me was constant racing thoughts, lacking the ability to focus on one task at a time, paralyzing pressure to get stuff done, an incessant overwhelmed feeling, no real emotional connection with my baby, and an ever present fear of impending doom.

It was also accompanied by very real, graphic visualizations of my baby getting hurt or dying. Of me hurting my baby or accidentally killing her. And an over the top fear of stair cases, heights and railings.

I was constantly on edge, always yelling and snapping at everyone I loved. It peaked for me with an actual anxiety attack, during which I was convinced I was having a heart attack.

Once I finally figured out that all of that did not equal typical motherhood, I reached out for help. I talked to people, to survivors, to doctors. I took medicine. I took control of my life.

It’s been a long 7 months since I finally recognized postpartum anxiety in myself, and I wouldn’t say I’m cured, but I am coping. I am at a point now that I never imagined I’d ever be this time last year. Remember, at that point I thought I was just destined to be a terrible mom. That it was something I’d never overcome.

Now, I’m not saying I sit here today the perfect mother, but I am living and learning how to overcome postpartum anxiety every day. I am on my way OUT of something I didn’t know I was stuck so very deep in for so long.

So take a look around at the other stories that are shared here today. Take a look at the amazing resources this blog has to offer. If you recognize that you’re experiencing something beyond the “normal” shift into motherhood, if you even suspect it, reach out. Get help. Your life does NOT have to be defined by this. YOU ARE NOT A BAD MOTHER, and you can get better.

~ Jill

Jill is a mother of 2, a toddler and a preschooler, and blogger at, where she takes a mostly humorous and very honest look at life as a modern mother. You can follow her on Twitter @BabyRabies, like her on Facebook – and you can read more about her experience with Postpartum Anxiety here:

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