I have written a few times in the past about Dysphoric Milk Ejection Reflex, also known as D-Mer for short. It was nice to see Babble doing a D-Mer story today, which I found thanks to a tweet from Catherine at Her Bad Mother. I'm sure this will help more mothers who've experienced this to understand what may be happening to them. I've talked to more than a few who were really confused about the difficult feelings they were having as they began to breastfeed. People who have it don't need to stop if they don't want to. (Of course, if you do want to, that's perfectly okay too.) Knowing they have it, though, can help them understand why they feel so wierd or awful every time they start to breastfeed. Thankfully, as I've been told, those feelings are only temporary and go away somewhat quickly.
The following post I wrote in 2009 lists a few more resources on experiencing depression, sadness or a hollow feeling right before breastfeeding. Check them out if you are looking for support in this area: For Moms Who Feel Bad Before Breastfeeding, This May Be Why
Let me know if you had this and if the story accurately on Babble reflects what you went through.
Thanks for remarking on this. Knowing what something is/ diagnosing has often helped rid my wrong feeling of "guilt". Particularly pertaining to anything relating to motherhood. Being real does not mean I am a bad mom.
Wow I am pretty well read about nursing and this is new for me. I have had that feeling from time to time ( maybe once a month) and having it every time I nursed would be torture, poor mamas!!